DOTA

wow. it's been more than a year since i last posted anything here, well, honestly, i forgot my password and i was too lazy to go through all the forgot-password?-troubles. really.

then suddenly it popped into my head, and so here i am, a year and several pounds later. (and i mean the weight, not the currency. haha).



after going through the nosebleed affair that is my filipino homework (i had to translate at least three english books to filipino and summarize them and all, and edit the whole thing because the word 'ay', apparently, is not allowed. to think that the books were about world religions, no less.).



anyway.

i would like to regard myself a fair/just/well-meaning person. i give rewards and due respect to those who earn them. and as for tonight's case, i wanted to reward myself.

obviously, i thought of dota, (don't tell me you didn't get that from the title, dummy) or maybe counter strike, since i like it better, but it's been a while since I've heard pugna's as-you-wish singsong reply to my mouseclicks.
Hey wait, I want to say that i'm not even good, in fact, i don't play with other people because i suck and i really don't enjoy embarrassment.



Dota is fun, with heroes and abilities and all, counter strike is fun too, with all the guns and everything. i like playing counter strike, it assuages my violent needs (haha-yep, i'm violent), and well, it's cool.



But right, i don't feel like it. suddenly dota, isn't such a good idea. dota makes me think of Gaza.

But we're not talking about make-believe ancients here, this is a real place, a home for a lot of people, they are not taking points for every damage, they are taking lives.

This is outrageous!

How it can be that while we drink our coffee here, or watch koreanovelas, read our Neil Gaiman novels, solve Cryptograms, while listen to Panic at the Disco while trying (but not really) to study, while we sit here, and breathe here, comfortably, the other side of the world is fighting, struggling for survival.

and in wars, of course, not everyone can win.

And they're dying while waiting, but what are they waiting for?

For more officials to babble about their political plans and political points of view? For more bombs and gunshots? For the hospital's last three power generators to run out?

It really sucks to really see how men can be consumed with power, and it sucks even more, that it's taking human lives for people to see that.

We are supposed to be civilized, aren't we?

Suddenly, suddenly i want all these to be under my control, to be within my mouse-clicking abilities, No i wouldn't want to play god, but i want o have the power to stop this, to end it all. But (i agree with you) who the hell am i?

Suddenly Pugna's Life Drain doesn't seem so cool anymore.

As i see them use it.