Amnesia

I really take it a serious insult to my intellect and will whenever people tell me how is should feel, and worse, when they tell instruct you to forget the very reason you feel the way you do। You can't blame me for hating the government because it is not perfect। You can''t hate me for hating the government because it is not even trying to be perfect (and as you read this, ask yourself, who is the government? -ihatemyself) You can't blame me for condemning the wrong --that is a natural reaction, the way compassion and forgiveness and mercy should be natural reactions (of the heart) and should not be forced out of someone so tragically young to lose innocence. You tell me I'm sick, I'll take that, but I should tell you, you're worse. Oh wait,. I did that. And what was your reply? To freaking forget about it. But I will not. And the more you tell me I should, the more I am convinced I hate you.


Because this is how you deal with a problem: first, you racognize the problem, you acknowledge it's there, you accept that it exists, there is a problem. And then, steps two, three, four and five: you deal with the problem. You allow yourself to feel, and then consider right and wrong. So the problem may be solved, and only after, if possible, do you try to forget. No? You don't get it? Allow me a few metaphors. The problem is a disease in the body. When your system tells you you're sick, your natural reaction is to play the doctor. You convince yourself you're okay, you sleep it off, or drown it with random activities and distractions. But then. you realize, it's actually there -- a disease, so you go for a real doctor. And the doctor is supposed to cure you, to provide a solution and ease the pain. The doctor provides a medicine. And healing will be, and will always be, a process.
Come on, how do you evaluate your medicine? It is not with the bitter taste it comes with it how it makes you feel at the moment, but rather, how it will make you feel better, how it will cure your system and how it will help you in the long run. It is not about the pain that comes with the healing but the healing itself. And the doctor, the trusted, beloved doctor, is supposed to give you a chance to mend.
so please don't ask me to JUST forget about it।You don't forget the pain, you feel it। And it lingers without a cure।
I didn't expect to have to tell you --- Amnesia is worse a disease if self-induced।